Sorry it’s been awhile. Honestly it’s not you, it’s me. I get so into things like blogging one moment, and then completely want nothing to do with it the next. Trust me, it’s me, not you.

I’ve taken some time off from blogging to…wait for it….sleep. I know, I know, how could I have slept for two months? I attribute my lack of enthusiasm for living my life to my new diagnosis and all of the changes I’ve had to go through since then.

 Hello, my name is Anne and I’m bipolar. After being treated for depression for over a decade and reaching maximum dosages with Lexapro and Welbutrin (plus add a little thyroid medicine on top and Abilify for good measure), my doctor decided that this just wasn’t working. 

After some long conversations, I’ve been given a new diagnosis and have since then been tapering off of Lexapro. If you have no experience with this drug, let me assure you that this tapering thing is no treat. Every time I reduced my dose I experienced withdrawal symptoms like nausea and vomiting, brain-zapping headaches, bouts of depression, and extreme fatigue. Hence the sleeping. When I’m depressed, it’s easier to just close my eyes rather than cry.

As of three days ago I am Lexapro free. After 10 years of it, I’m free. I don’t know what the next move will be for my doctor and me to take, but I’m trying to be optimistic. I’m back to working out regularly and getting things accomplished.

Long story short, I’ve missed writing to you, whoever you are. Sorry that it’s been so long but hopefully things have passed through the worst of it and I’ll be able to live life again and no longer want to sleep it away.